I’m not sure there’s anything that feels as hollow as a purposeless life. I may not be in the best position to say this, but I’m sure I can imagine. A lot of times I have lost myself in thoughts about what life really means and why we are here living. Someone really popular died yesterday, and someone tweeted this: “You got plans. You got dreams. You not even in control of d life! So wat life?? Wats the whole idea behind life?”. I really felt like I could place myself in this person’s shoes because the Purpose of Life can be quite the enigma when you ponder about it. You begin to wonder if it’s all worth it. I like to think of it as a short recurrent bout of depression that’s common in a lot of us.
Now there’s something about me that I’m not entirely sure is common to everybody or is just an uncanny peculiarity. Have you ever found yourself in a situation where you work and strive really hard for something, say for example when you were a kid and you really wanted a sweet or something, only to get it in the end and feel like it was all really worthless a cause? You may feel so empty and weird after it, you lick (or chew, I prefer chewing candy) the sweet, the taste lingers for a while and then disappears and then you’re wondering if that’s the end (LOOL). It may feel like you never had candy at all, what a waste! I feel that way about A LOT of things. I know a lot of people would say the memory of the whole experience makes it worth it, but what if that doesn’t cut it for me? What if I still feel really empty after it all, saddened by how ephemeral it was and I feel like I really haven’t achieved anything? I don’t know if I’m alone in this, but it’s just the way it is.
I guess this is my problem with many YOLO and “live fast” activists, “seize the day”. In my opinion, this is how they compensate for purposelessness, and I believe this compensation couldn’t be more unapt in practice. I believe as human beings we always yearn for something deep, even when we don’t know it. Using short-lived experiences to fill that void doesn’t really help the situation. The fast life can never bring true happiness in my opinion. No matter how much you seem to be enjoying it all, deep down, like really really deep down, there is a sadness that would slowly eat you up if it’s not taken care of. I guess maybe that’s why some people suffer mid-life crisis, but hey I’m just guessing! It’s kinda like avoiding a question or believing the answer to the question doesn’t exist while the fact that the question hasn’t been answered still surfaces in our thoughts sometimes, when we are reminded about it. You could play some music to distract yourself from the thought, but you can’t play music forever now can you?
So if living fast isn’t the solution, what is? I’m afraid that is an entire topic that I am not sure would be wise for me to delve in now. I believe that deep down (pardon my perceived excessive usage of this term ) we all know the answer to this question, many of us just brush it aside because it “doesn’t make sense” to us. Many are utterly confused, some simply refuse to open their minds, and I’m not sure anybody can help you do that if you aren’t ready to yourself. All I can say here is that I thought hard about it all and I have found the answer to it all, I have found purpose, and I SWEAR, it is THE BEST thing that can happen to anybody in this lifetime. If it’s something you are looking for, I hope you find it, it would do you a world of good. I wish you good luck and happy times ahead. Good night/day 🙂